dear friend

i’ve been up for hours.

i was up before the sun. before the roosters screeched hello. before the neighbour’s hungry baby and before the chirping birds in trees above, in trees below. i was up and it was dark as i rode my bike. the street lights turned off, one by one, above my head. my phone was a flashlight, a yellow raincoat kept me dry.

i met her in the darkness at the coffee shop down the road
(you’d love her, you know).
we drove.
and light took over night and turned the dawn to day.

we stopped.
she ran across the street and picked a bag full of plumerias – her face deep in her task, her smile wide as she raced back to the car. excited and alive.

we reached the beach, its water washed with the sky’s delightful pastel pinks and blues of perfect morning hues.

and then we saw them swimming. off the coast, a pod! so many! babies and mothers and fathers and brothers. families of dolphins jumping and playing.

we swam to join the fun.
we swam.
and swam
and swam.

we dove, we chased, we played with them, deep in the blue and through the haze of that underwater world.

it’s sunset and we’re all we have. i’ll know it better soon.

that’s magic

there’s a restorative power buried deep in the earth on this island. it seeps through the grass into the plants and the trees, to ease the slightest feelings of uncertainty
and fear.

i felt it again, just this morning, it came rustling through as the wind in the trees while i sat in a room between the mountain and the sea, my mind tracing along the curve between yin and yang. the rain came before the sun shone and i basked in the brilliance of a bending moment. a moment that lasted longer than i’d ever dare to ask it to, that came and went so gentle and slow.

i’m back. in a home, in a place i know. and i’m looking for more as i always do. and i’m looking to settle as i never do.

i’m looking as always
i’m settling as never.

i once
was lost.

but now i find myself on the edge of a world i just started to get to know. one that seems so big when i feel so small and so small when i’m here, on this island, and i meet people who know people or know something my heart desperately needed to know.

hawaii pulls us together, brings us back and into ourselves. so just as the cycle will always continue, i will find myself on the inside of this very energy.


because that’s all there is.