i don’t know what it was. but that perfect sunset pulled me in. left me breathless. called me.

it seems to grow more beautiful, every time.

the colours cleared my mind. my thoughts dissipated with a trickle. gone, gone, gone.

a sunset like this, forever.

winter, no blues.

i live for those days. walking and feeling the sun, the air, the coolness. i live for those moments of breathing so deeply i gasp and sob. and the air hits my chest and the feeling floods my body, through my shoulders and arms, to my toes in my shoes.

my fingers pulse and my legs feel a little heavy but the excitement builds and i’m left alone in that moment of mine, just mine, that precious piece of time. 

it’s happening more, lately.

i watch the weather forecast each morning. it’s those unusually warm days in winter; making it through those cold months; and then, that feeling as the weather warms to spring. those are the days that thrill me. 

but for now, the slow burn of this raw winter chill makes me happier than it has in seasons before. somehow, it does.

i walk to work to the beat of the music in my ears. 

ducks: they came for a visit on this perfect spring evening. i fed them stale bread and watched them hesitate toward me, snatching the food so yummy to them. until they waddled off, quacking and talking to each other.

smell, feel, spring.

spring is coming.

i can feel it in the air. i can smell it, too. it excites me. makes me slightly delirious. i feel like a little kid again. spring is one season closer…i am dreaming of summer.

sweltering days, hot nights. the sting of a slight breeze on skin pink from the sun, sending an electric chill through your body. days at the beach, gritty sand sticking to everything. annoying, but beautiful in its own way. salty air. watermelons and mangoes. early mornings, restless nights, heat overbearing. i want it all! give me the bad all summer long. i just wish you were here already.

i can wait. and while i do, i’ll think of you, summer. willing you to come as soon as you can. so spring, please, it’s warm days you should bring.