clouds above me
sea below me
i catch my breath on the ebbing of the tide.
love within me
earth surrounds me
the magic of this life settles deep within.
i don’t hear a thing but the beating of my heart,
racing to slow.
i float a while, my mind clears. [it’s never quite a while enough. so i hold these beautiful moments so near.]
the ocean hears my soul. the ocean heals my soul.
[one stormy day in sydney]
i ache in colour and rhyme,
in love and lust
and like everything else i feel it all too deep.
well below the surface it swirls and kicks and edges closer to the thin and fragile membrane of my full and fluttering heart.
deep and honest and real.
something stirred as i watched him explore and realised he is really, truly here.
seal rocks, new south wales.
rock on. hiking granite island. victor harbor, south australia.
reflections and perceptions. it’s now, or it’s never.
wandering the coastline, hallet cove national park, south australia.
today it felt so good, to be whipped by salty air.
my favourite air to breathe.
i inhaled deep.
it threw my hair in tangles. my eyes wept in stinging and cleansing as my body warmed from walking and talking and clearing my mind of all the fear and worry.
i battled today.
sometimes it feels constant and unforgiving, a little piece of everyday.
sometimes it creeps into my dreaming.
but each time, i learn more. and when i need it most, words of wisdom stoke my will to fight.
but today i turned the darkness into light as she walked by me and told me stories. as she smiled and we laughed and i knew it was
i was lashed by the cool wailing wind
of autumn by the sea.
it stirred me up
and then it set me free.
i’d never done it before, to lay on the ocean floor, open my eyes and look up at the sky.
today though, i did just that. through salty water, i stared into the light, at the strength of the sun, casting shards of glowing gold. i stared at the blueness of the sky, blurry clouds passing by.
i sat on the beach with her, we spoke about just this. about the seeing of things. the discovering, appreciating and witnessing of more than just life at its surface, as it plays out in front of our eyes. it’s conscious. it’s moving. and today i saw it anew, from the water, through all the blue.
don’t miss the little bits and pieces that together make triumphs of the smallness. tie yourself to shooting stars that fly through the nighttime. let your perspective move and change. shift your frame of mind, and find it all, just by opening your eyes, looking up or out or in or through or any which way you’ve never looked before.
notice, see, listen, feel. dive in, look up, revel in the silence and the stillness. feel the rush of seeing things for the first time, or seeing old things with new eyes. there’s beauty everywhere, it lives in everything. turn yourself upside down and stare a while.
i’ve been up for hours.
i was up before the sun. before the roosters screeched hello. before the neighbour’s hungry baby and before the chirping birds in trees above, in trees below. i was up and it was dark as i rode my bike. the street lights turned off, one by one, above my head. my phone was a flashlight, a yellow raincoat kept me dry.
i met her in the darkness at the coffee shop down the road
(you’d love her, you know).
and light took over night and turned the dawn to day.
she ran across the street and picked a bag full of plumerias – her face deep in her task, her smile wide as she raced back to the car. excited and alive.
we reached the beach, its water washed with the sky’s delightful pastel pinks and blues of perfect morning hues.
and then we saw them swimming. off the coast, a pod! so many! babies and mothers and fathers and brothers. families of dolphins jumping and playing.
we swam to join the fun.
we dove, we chased, we played with them, deep in the blue and through the haze of that underwater world.
it’s sunset and we’re all we have. i’ll know it better soon.
snorkelling at three tables on the north shore of oahu, hawaii.
the only way i’ll ever live.
let’s count the stars tonight,
you and me.