lost without you 

nights are the hardest. they pull me apart. i turn into just pieces of me. they don’t quite fit back together without you. 

i feel you from here. i feel you in my thoughts and dreams. i feel you in the quiet and the steady and the gentleness of my loneliness. 

and then i feel you fast and strong, in the whirlwind of my days and the noisy, rustling wind that stirs outside my window and the ticking in the ceiling that has no cause or source. i know you think and dream and feel me too. but life is just so much sweeter when i’m with you. 

so come back to me and bring my heart, bring yours too. come back to me darling, come home soon. no more airport goodbyes, no more last nights or mornings or meals or drives. just this next time to last us forever. yeah, that’d be just fine. 


day one i found a reason, a hindsight miracle, a beautifully foolish chance that arrived so close to the end of a very big adventure.
day six i fell in love
by lagoons on mountains in sunshine and mist and our very first kiss.
day twenty
i left
tears in my throat
never forming never showing never letting you know.
everyday since then, i’ve followed my heart as you take it with you wherever you go.
day 133 and 225
brought me back to your side.
and i hate those days i left, as i sobbed my way with blurry eyes through airport corridors,
without you
[so they don’t get a number].
it’s day 367, and my life has changed and grown towards everything i could have ever dreamed to dream of.
in just two more days,
there you’ll be.
there you’ll be
and returned to me.