[it wasn’t today, by the way]

my eyes burn. they’re tired. but i think, so i’m awake.

[a mosquito nnnnns around my head.]

today, yes today, was a very peculiar day. you see, i’m lost. rather, i’m just a little confused. a little separated from reality. a little on edge. i’m waiting.

[i hate waiting.]

today i saw hawaii everywhere. i felt i’d lost the magic. that it stayed, with my heart [not unusually], on the island. but i saw hawaii everywhere and i guess i saw little glimpses of the magic, too.

i know better now. hawaii lives in me. in the crevasses of my soul. in the peaks and valleys of my memories. it’s the place, yeah, but it’s about those good vibes, the ones that fed me day after day – but that lives in me. it follows me, hunts and chases and envelopes me, everywhere i go.

read me like a book. you’ll see the magic in my eyes.

abracadabra

there’s a natural filter here, he said, if you don’t move with the flow, follow the pace, remove the struggle and find your place within the entirety of the fluidity, you won’t find the magic. you won’t feel the energy. you won’t find open doors to open air and open hearts, you know, they’re everywhere. 

there’s a finality to my days now. things are blossoming and things are closing, just how they should. just how i feel is right. there’s a bigger sense of being, a more enormous feeling of living, on this island soaked in salt water mystery.

the wind whips against my skin, coiling across the universe, leaving me in seconds of stillness to breathe and dream and wonder.

forever isn’t so long.

chasing happiness.

i run towards it. everyday.

that feeling of joy, the squeal and the excitement of the purest moment of happiness. the one you feel even after it fades to a memory.

the smell, the reminder, the tingle down your spine. the love, the freedom the moments lost in time floating by so fast you forget to keep up. so you slow it down and appreciate every second. but in the end, even that only lasts a while.

you get one shot. be grateful. do it right.

we waste too much. too much energy, too much emotion…

too much time.

so think about what you want and who you are and how everything will work out. life is magical, miraculous, more than we can imagine. 

chase the newness of tomorrow. the dream, the love, the rainbows. life is perfect.