he’s my dream in this real life, this real life’s all a dream.

 just six more days to wait.
then,
i’ll be living inside your pockets again,
in the creases of the memories,
scattered along the dream stained threads,
of our past and future,
living tucked inside the crystal brightness of our now now now.
it’s just six more days until we find our physical way back into the perfect, embodied space of love and loving. of easiness and hopefulness
together again. and all the waiting will be worth it,
as it always is.
we’ll be real-life dreaming.
hearts colliding.
changing the way we’re meant to be made, and it’ll be pulling me apart to pull us back and into one another,
double knotting the end to the start.
and so we forever go on.
there’s something so potent about the presence of your real-life flesh and blood.

fly

i will be free
forever free.
i will be surrounded by adventure
light
raw emotion
honesty.
i will not settle.
i will not want.
i will love and i will be loved
there’s really
nothing
else
it’s black and it’s white.
so beautiful so bright.

yeah

and why shouldn’t it drive you crazy? why shouldn’t it be overwhelming, incomprehensible, unfathomable? 

why should it be understandable, logical or anything close to normal?

why not just let the feelings be feelings, float with the beauty and the madness and let your heart run free.

logan joseph

he was born two days ago. a perfect miracle – two lives, one. a photo stilled my heart, i let out a sigh of love and disbelief at the beauty of his face, his two tiny hands resting gently on the blanket. big, bright eyes. a world of possibility.

so innocent, so unknowing. a tiny life that has changed so many others, with grace, already. and that’s the thing about a baby, about LJ. he made his mark from the second he arrived, the first time he looked into his mother’s eyes, the first time his father held him.

his life is a blessing, he is the extraordinary result of love. two hearts combined, two souls creating a destiny. it’s fate, in its purest form.

i am so proud of you lex – a brave and beautiful woman – and luis – a strong and willing father – you are both the reason for this miracle.

love found a way. love into life into little logan joseph.

without love, it’s all worthless. without hope, without faith and kindness, friendship and compassion. life is so much more than anything we know, more than anything we give it credit for.

be real, feel more. give, give, give. believe. care about everything you do and everything around you.

love, with all your heart, all of the time, for as long as you live.