i do my best to shift it aside, dull it from my memory bank. push it to the darkest corner of my mind. but it comes rattling through and shakes me up, this fear. it’s eating me, so silently, alive.
it’s the remembering that scares me most. but, this won’t be like that. see, this fear brings courage, elation, change! yes, change!
so i swallow it along with all the care i have. the newness has me trembling with anticipation. [goosebumps run up and down my arms at the thought of it all.]
life is delivering bucketloads of unending possibilities right to the doorstep of my heart.